Confusing .

Today suppost to be a brand new day of my self , but why dont really seem that working , i really did tried hard - Im not thinking of it im giving up everything to start over but how come that dont seem like any reaction yet i knew that cant be rush is so short of time , but still i ll try my best .. im very bad , i felt my self really bad becoz not staying at home all the time , i mean everyday when i come back from work after bath and then im going out with frens , it seem like i got abit of tired becoz alway till late at nite , now doesnt same like last time got ppl waiting and those ... now no more ! i just wish to stay at home sometime , going out too much and i seem like tired and more tired , but sometime really no choice that i wanna stay at home , i got nothing to do at home beside sleeping and comp .. all i have is only a room that with my bed my computer and my phone .. im trying not going out so much maybe really gona be serious and im gona take rest at home , i wish i could do that ! meanwhile im scare that when im home , i scare of thinking i scare of being alone and i ll remind memory , im stress stress stress .. but still i'll learn to face on it .* sigh * sometime im really too serious , but that my attitude ~ when joke i ll joke when serious i dont wish too hurt someone =} .. Tired though .GD nitezxx ..